cant hold it in anymore I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU! i just wish one day i would actually feel that way!!!! FML were not together so i cant be fucking angry but i am. im hurt that its not me Hell itll NEVER be me! i just dont understand why. am i not pretty enough? smart enough? talented enough? maybe i spoiled you. i gave you too much. i cared to much and now im stuck while your living your life happily. You shouldve just lied to me like everyone else and never told me you loved me. i just want to not feel this way. its like a waterfall of emotions that i cant control. I shoudlve just left things the way they were. im crying which is something i dont do. I bet you didnt know that leaving without a proper goodbye crushed me. i didnt even get a hug. Never getting a call or a message once in a while makes me feel like im not important and you dont care. you can tell everyone you do but actions speak louder than words and not once have you said that to me. Did you know that everytime your on the phone with someone new and your face lights up i have to pretend that im ok with that. After all were “just friends”. Im not Ok with any of it. you cant be friends with someone you love it hurts to much. worst of all im not the one who initaited saying i love you…you did! and than as soon as we start hanging out again it all just stops. not once have we sat down and had an honest conversation about whats going on between us EVER! Everyone says i deserve better and i want to believe them but my heart just cant move on. I was always there for you whether you wanted me there or not! i would give up anything for you and little do you know i did! and no you didnt ask me too but i did it because i love you. You can go out of your way for everyone else even people that do nothing but betrayed you constantly but for me i dont matter.Do you honestly want to know why im single…maybe because im a fool waiting on you. why havnt i had my fun? because everytime i try i get reminded that i shouldnt do anything unless its with you.. i was saving myself for you but what am i waiting for. years down the line for you to finally admit that i was the one for you all along and have me waste my years waiting? I cant wait forever and i wont. the one thing that draw me to you out everything else was you passion and honesty. iv never met anyone like you in my life. i let my guard down to soon (stupid me) i didnt expect this..to fall head over heels flying higher than a kite stupidly in love with you. worst of all i doubt youll ever know it.
cant hold it in anymore
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU! i just wish one day i would actually feel that way!!!! FML were not together so i cant be fucking angry but i am. im hurt that its not me Hell itll NEVER be me! i just dont understand why. am i not pretty enough? smart enough? talented enough? maybe i spoiled you. i gave you too much. i cared to much and now im stuck while your living your life happily. You shouldve just lied to me like everyone else and never told me you loved me. i just want to not feel this way. its like a waterfall of emotions that i cant control. I shoudlve just left things the way they were. im crying which is something i dont do. I bet you didnt know that leaving without a proper goodbye crushed me. i didnt even get a hug. Never getting a call or a message once in a while makes me feel like im not important and you dont care. you can tell everyone you do but actions speak louder than words and not once have you said that to me. Did you know that everytime your on the phone with someone new and your face lights up i have to pretend that im ok with that. After all were “just friends”. Im not Ok with any of it. you cant be friends with someone you love it hurts to much. worst of all im not the one who initaited saying i love you…you did! and than as soon as we start hanging out again it all just stops. not once have we sat down and had an honest conversation about whats going on between us EVER! Everyone says i deserve better and i want to believe them but my heart just cant move on. I was always there for you whether you wanted me there or not! i would give up anything for you and little do you know i did! and no you didnt ask me too but i did it because i love you. You can go out of your way for everyone else even people that do nothing but betrayed you constantly but for me i dont matter.Do you honestly want to know why im single…maybe because im a fool waiting on you. why havnt i had my fun? because everytime i try i get reminded that i shouldnt do anything unless its with you.. i was saving myself for you but what am i waiting for. years down the line for you to finally admit that i was the one for you all along and have me waste my years waiting? I cant wait forever and i wont. the one thing that draw me to you out everything else was you passion and honesty. iv never met anyone like you in my life. i let my guard down to soon (stupid me) i didnt expect this..to fall head over heels flying higher than a kite stupidly in love with you. worst of all i doubt youll ever know it.
